“He was born with a gift of laughter and a sense that the world was mad.”
I don’t know what I did to deserve this life. I’m still leading the life as if I’m writing my fantasy autobiography. I’m unbelievably lucky. It is my sunny brain that makes my life easier and brighter. So to mark 8th year anniversary of the Secret Rose Theatre, a theatre that we made many visions come true, I decided to unfold the secrets of rosey life to spread my sunshine.
Trusting – It’s not easy to be so optimistic all the time. Sometimes I think I might be missing screws. But life is good in Hollywood, a center of media universe. I work with the most creative people. I never learned how to worry or be suspicious. I’m duper naïve, and convince myself that it’s because of my circumstance, not because of lack of my brain cells. I’m with trust worthy people and no reason not to be trusting. You become paranoia for how you treat others and it only attracts skillful people who can fool you, while naïve ones think you are just simply too weird. Law of attraction.
No pressure – Most of time, I don’t know whether I’m playing or working. Pressure doesn’t drive me. I stopped worrying about “making it†because somehow I was able to convince my family that I already “made it†what ever that means. High standard is just fear of not being good enough to be accepted. Hell, I’m perfectionist, but I damn well know perfect is within the expectation of human minds and it won’t be “wow wow wow.†Bottom line: cage free mind can create dynamic.
Simplify – you don’t need much to live. It’s a vomitingly hypocritical things to say, but I pretty much have everything I need. Its my uber-ego that needs to make a life meaningful, or want to hear “You and I made great looking children, let’s do it … from George Clooney.†Other than that, I don’t have much “want.â€
It’s OK to be hateful – as long as it doesn’t come from your self hatred. List the things you hate – and if it grows from you or you grew from – that’s self-hatred. I hate onions, and it doesn’t grow from me. I grew from my parents but I love them – so I’m alright. If you hate one thing, hate everything equally. I’m a little bit of racist, sexist, ageist – a well balanced hater.
Recycle all. If you see a trash, you pick it up. The same thing applies to relationships. When you see a Debbie Downer, don’t avoid. You face her like a Eli Wallach would. You suck all the bad thoughts, energy and idea from her and recycle into a good one to put it back in the air. Don’t store it. Instead of “That asshole cut me off†– “oh glad the speedy Gonzales didn’t rear end me!.†Staying away from negative energy is like Atkin diet. It’s better to learn how to deal with downers, for they are like fish in a fish tank.
Money – it doesn’t take much to live, but it can cost all your life if you pay attention to it too much. Whatever you do, if you are good at it, you will make money. Just work hard and smart. Possession is not achievement. Only achievement is achievement itself, and sometimes it’s much cheaper.
Be flexible in what to believe. I used to believe my classmate Miyama was my soul mate, then I had a changed of heart to Aki, till he was killed by an accident. Now my definition is “a compatible person t.†I used to believe in Santa Clause, but now I believe that everyone is Santa Clause if you are nice to them. I’m not a Jew, but I do enjoy practical Hanukah gifts, too.
Friends – Be with people who share the same value. True friends are lovers minus passionate French kiss, must share respect, trust and admire each other. All my friends are some kind of warm godmothers and godfathers.
Create a heaven here. I don’t know what’s going to happen after death. Have some idea, but not sure of anything, since I haven’t been dead yet. But the concept of reward points of entrance puzzles me. It is less certain than “mama’s bank.†(My mom still owes me money) I’m cashing all my points here in this life. Call me a gambler.
Stand for something
You can see a road more standing than from crawling. We have amazing freedom in this country, and we need to make sure it is distributed equally among us. Empower and inspire yourselves with the people with sense of mission. Find your tribe who cherish and magnify your compassion.
The one of things I’m still learning is how to slow down to smell roses. I cannot stop to just have fun. I AM having great deal of fun, I just cannot relax. But wouldn’t it be more fun to be roses that make others smile?
